I haven't posted in FOREVER... Not sure exactly why, I guess I needed to focus more internally for a while. Life has been busy, schedule has been kind of up and down all summer. My routine has been off and it has been a challenge for me.
Lots of really positive changes have been happening for me. I've been working on being positive and have seen tremendous changes. Right now, I'm feeling really good about life and that has allowed for many blessings to come into my life.
I've found a very special man, who thinks I'm just as special! He is a police officer and a marine. He is also a Gemini of all things... We've been seeing each other for three weeks. This relationship is so completely different from every other one I've ever been in! At first, his Gemini ways was very off putting. But at the time, I didn't realize he was a Gemini and then the"duh moment" of realizing this is what I asked for!!!!
I asked for a relationship where my partner was not clingy and dependant upon me. It was the highest priority on my list that I have my time (AND INDEPENDANCE) and I don't get passive aggressive bs for it! But yet, when I got that I was totally freaked out because I did not realize that I got what I asked for! I thought he was being a jerk. LOL...
But he is so not a jerk! It is taking some getting used to, there are issues, but we actually communicate and talk. We are honest with each other. We talk about what is going on in our lives and we are real with each other.
Yes, it isn't perfect and neither of us are exactly normal, but it's working and I don't believe in perfect or normal anyway `;~) It is taking everything I have to not jump in with both feet!
The second major change in my life is that for the very first time, I'm moving because I want to move and I'm moving into a nicer place that *fits* me better. It isn't the cheapest place, but that is okay. I am past the "I have to find the cheapest place I can that I can move into RIGHT NOW!"
I just randomly mentioned to a friend that I was thinking about moving and to keep their eyes and ears open for me. Lo' and behold, my friend says they have a place that may be available soon. Her in-laws own property and their other son lived there until he got sick and had to move in with his parents.. The apartment has just been sitting there for years...
My friend talked her in-laws and viola! I'm in... It is an awesome apartment. A one bedroom PLUS loft with cathedral ceilings and built-in-book shelving all the way to the ceiling.
I am a bit sad that I will not have any yardage or balcony, but I never used them at my current place. On the plus, I will not have to go to the laundry mat anymore!! YAY!!!
I also recieved permission to start my second degree training around Litha. I'm currently deeply fascinated by the current book I am reading, The Secret Teachings of Plants: The Intelligence of the Heart in the Direct Perception of Nature by Stephen Harrod Buhner. It is mind bending in some ways and will be one of my must read books `~)
So all in all, life is very positive right now...