There are 19 steps leading to my new apartment. I immediately thought of the 19 Priestesses of Brighid who keep her flame lit. It makes me smile each time I traverse those steps and I feel as if I am walking through her flame being cleansed and recharged!
I read a lot of magick blogs that totally blow my mind on a regular basis. If I could, I'd read all day long! There is a reason I'm a librarian after all `;~) I love reading! I love books and words and how they play together. I need to stop before I have a nerdgasm...
Anyway, back to the blogs... I love reading how people think and what they do. I love reading how dedicated they are to their readership and their work. I am fascinated by all these things people do that I have never dreamed of doing or had any interest in doing.
I am an information nerd more than anything else, so I love learning about all these things whether I intend to use that knowledge or not. Now, I must clarify that I am not the type of information nerd that cares about the news or reality tv. I rarely pay attention to either... I look for what *I* consider quality information. Very little of what is reported in the news is the real story these days. Everything has a spin on it...
So, one of my favorite blogs is RuneSoup written by Gordon. Sometimes, I swear he is in my head poking around looking for good material because 90% of the time, it is just what I am working on or needing to hear!
I've also noticed that , at least with the blogs I read, there is a pattern of topics. This week, it is Jesus and Christian workings. I do not have any problems or issues with Christianity, it just isn't my cup of tea.
I've let go of my issues a long time ago, so it was very odd to me that when I was flooded with Jesus posts, I got a little squicked about it. It really made me uncomfortable. Just as on facebook this week there has been a flood of christian posts. I'm really surprised that this all squicked me out.
It made me really think. Have I really just been playing lip service and been in denial about my issues? Have I so isolated myself that other ideas disturb and challenge my own beliefs? Just what is it about all of this that squicks me?
Then I wondered is this how others feel when I talk about my religion? I realized that I had isolated myself and didn't allow room for other opinions into my world view. I am ashamed by this... I honestly and devoutly respect all beliefs, so it was quite shocking to see that I had allowed myself to isolate myself so tightly.
Isolation is never a good thing, and I had noticed this trend in myself lately. Now that I know I have done this, I have to do the work to open myself back up.
And I have been doing this work and it is going well. I have moved to a place that is less isolated, I will be teaching dance, I will not be hiding or sleeping away life in hermitage any longer!