Well, my crafting bug has been biting hard for the last couple of days as I've found some wonderful blogs on jewlery making, beading, sewing, and more!
Some of my favorite things I've found today? This skull cameo fabric and this boar's head fabric at spoonflower.com. A hipster shopgirl apron pattern at burdastyle.com and a 6 gored skirt. Spoonflower.com looks amazing and I have some ideas I want to try out for fabrics! Maybe some coven or sigil specific designs.
The BIGGEST <<and I do mean biggest>> Bead give-a-way ever is happening over at Denise Yezback Moore's blog. A total of 7.5 lb's of beads!!! And I'm enjoying all the Bead Soup Party folks designs! I'm thinking about getting in on it next time, it looks like way too much fun!
Also, this weekend is my coven's Litha which I will be hosting. It's exciting to have my covener's over and to share my hearth. I've been enjoying leading the ritual writing committee and all of the excitement and energy that we pour into what we are doing. Sometimes, when I get down and don't want to do my work, all I have to do is think about the dedication of my fellow covener's. When I get ranty, I call my sounding board and I'm done and over it. I hope she knows how much of a blessing she is.
It seems this week has been focused on Meditation and keeping up on your practices in the blogsphere. Everywhere I turn, there were posts on meditation. Miss Sugar over at Charmed I'm Sure She brought up several good points. They have been rattling around in my head for a few days. Firstly, meditation may not be for everyone, but there are things that one can do to clear one's mind and gain focus. I'm going to look deeper into the Japa practice that she mentions as it seems I kind of already do it `;~)
For I'm always chanting and singing 'Song to the Secret Name of the Star Goddess' that I posted about here. Nothing moves me like that song does `;~) It sets me at peace almost instantly and I am as content at as a purring cat. As to the rest of my daily practice? eh.... I dont really follow a routine practice and it has quickly been becoming a focal point that I need to change that.
The cornerstone of my practice has been that I get to see the moon every night as I'm leaving work. She and I commune for a few minutes and then I head home. So in some ways, I am very connected though, I no longer feel that it is enough.
Miss Sugar also talked about what one is looking to accomplish with their magic. Ya know, I've never really thought about it like that. I'm also fairly sure that there are plenty of others who haven't either. I've never really *used* magic to accomplish goals. Except for one instance where my life and my children's lives were threatened. And no, we didn't engage in a 'magical battle,' with the help of my HP and his partner, another HP, we called magic to persuade the abuser to turn themselves into the police. The results were not as we expected, but he was quickly caught.
Anyway, this post is not about that `;~) So where was I? hmm, yes, practice and goals. So just what do I want to accomplish? What are my goals?
A strong foundation
I want to build a foundation to keep me up when I falter, as I have almost no Earth in my natal chart, and I tend to be very flighty... The only birt of Earth in my chart is my rising sign, Virgo. This has been acerbated by not having a foundation in my formative years. I moved an average of every three years until I was 23. Roots? What Roots???
Focus Control and Follow-through
I taught myself not to have goals or expect anything because everything was always pulled out from under me when we moved unexpectedly. So while the upside to this was that I was very good at living in the now, I didn't know how to prepare for the future. I still don't :( Growing up, I never thought about those things as the future was infinitely untangibly beyond my control.
Ahh, control... Why do I let you slip through my fingers, why do I give you away as if you were a bad penny? This is the truth of it. I give you away or I simply refuse to take up your reigns. Honestly, I severely dislike being in control. Why, you ask? Because there is no one else to blame if I am in control.
Oh, yes, I am brutally honest with myself most of the time. *snort*
And follow through? psshshshshsht! Seriously? I have to much fire and air for my ideas to be grounded or manifested at times. I'd rather be the architect and let someone else build it`;~) Once something is no longer a challenge, forget it - I'm not interested. Think outside the box? oh hell yeah... What's a box, btw?
Honestly, the only time I really complete things is when I am facing near anihilation by deadline `;~) Like, I'm having upto 20 people at my house on Saturday and I still haven't mowed, weed eated, or cleaned my house... Though my neighbor is supposed to mow and I have to borrow the weedeater from another neighbor... Nor have I made my dress or my special item for the ritual... And I've changed my special item like 3 times now...
So gues what my to-do list is like for tonight... hahahahah!!!!
So just what are my goals?
I want to be able to pay all my bills, including enough to afford a newer car. I want to be able to buy that dress or go to that workshop. I dno't want to have to know Peter and Paul... I want to be able to create beautiful things. I want to be of service to my community. I want to achieve my calling.
So know that I know what I want to accomplish and my goals. I just have to figure out how to get there. But I think the figuring it out part is how you get there `;~)
Blessed be my lovelies!